When I was kid I was a true goonda... Total bindass and confident. Cud face and ans (back ans) anyone.
(Age: 3)I remember my 1st day at nursery (pre-school), I was so excited to go to school, to carry a bag a water bottle and have a uniform... Wow suddenly felt I was big... Felt responsible, like the school is my responsibility. Mom had come to leave me to school, I seen gal n boys of my age howling and they were just not ready to leave their parents or enter the school. I found it very strange, thinking wat made them so sad and scared. Very proudly I walked into my class and took a seat and felt a true winner among those cranky losers. When mom came to pick me, she found me sitting with a grumpy face in one corner of the class. She walked upto me that’s when the teacher stopped and asked her
“Is she your daughter?”
“Yes!! Is everything ok?”
“Your daughter, She is a terror, she trashed all the kids.”
“What?”
Mom walked to me before she cud ask me anything “Mama they were crying so loudly, I had to hit them. If they will continue like this how will I study and learn? How will I become a CONDUCTOR?” (Yeah u heard it right I wanted to be a bus conductor... cos always his bag is full of coins)
So this was me
(Age: 5) Later while in school my best pal was none other my school principal. Every morning after the assembly I would land in his cabin spend some good time( the peon every morning got some good breakfast for princi of which he only managed to have few grabs cos the rest was all my share) and then princi wud drop me back to my class. Mom wud always ask me how can u do something like this, “Mama he is my best friend”.
(Age: 6) I participated in a dance for which I was the main lead. On the function day just before my dance a skit was scheduled. In that skit the performers wore animal masks and were very strangely dressed. It scared me to the core. I refused to go on the stage. Mom somehow convinced me, I went up the stage and I started with my dance, now out of no where one of the skit performers with the animal mask ran before the stage. And what followed next was … in between of my dance I screamed loudly. I was so frightened before my mom cud reach me I jumped from the stage and ran out of the hall. That was the end of my confidence, my bindass attitude L and a new beginning... Beginning of my stage fear
After that I never had the guts to go up the stage, even if I to collect any awards it wud remind me of that day L
(Age: 14) We did a drug awareness campaign in our school, where I was the doc who had to check the drug addict. The skit started and then my entry. Everything was going well, I was checking my so called patient’s stomach and then someone said we can’t hear the doc. I forgot all my lines and in that fear during the patient’s checkup, I blanked out and the next what I know was I unzipped my patient. Goodness!! That chap face was worth seeing. I chickened out and the poor chap did his part with his pants unzipped. I was so embarrassed.
(Age: 20) Friends coaxed me to do a very small act, in which I had to only walk all over the stage. I was literally shivering on stage but managed to do the act without any issue … hehehe
(Age:??? Nah) My boss asks me how abt all managers putting up an act for the bash … It means I have to dance :O I think she has lost it. She wud drag me for rehearsals. On the bash day … I just didn’t care what was happening arnd me and did my part, I heard the crowd cheering “ONCE MORE”
After that my stage fear was killed .. yippee .. Now m waiting for my confidence to return J
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